Walking Through Life...

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 02:53:05 GMT

back home tomarrow
Current mood: crazy

ok ok i lied i'm still on this journal thing only!!!! because some of my best friends joined recently. that the only reason.

ahhhh well go back to lovely siloam springs *sour castic* yeah we leave about noonish should be there around 6 or 7 pm then i go to the doctors to see whats up. then i plan to be back at work with my boyfriend. oh yeah i'm back with my ex did i mention that?. yeah me and brian are going to be working together and it's good because he's a great guy...i just don't want to get hurt again ever.

other then that i have a new peircing ...*dum dum* my eye brow.

hope all is going well in cyber land.

~kitten~

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 01:23:37 GMT

ok i had it up to here with doctors. i've made up my mind and i'm not going to any more. what ever happens to me will happen..i don't care and i'm tired of all the fucking needles and all the damned tests.

fuck it.

on another note~ i go back to work in a month which will be so cool. i'm glad siloam springs really is the pit of hell, chews a person up then spits them out whole. i can't stand it here.

oh and for the record...all you rumor mongers out there can kiss my ass!

i'm going to be in colorado living it up and sking on the white slopes so eat that...i'm going to be happy for once and no one is going to get in my god damned way...because i am in a killing mood.

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 02:10:05 GMT

it's clear to me now that i have no body and that i can trust noone.

my friends in real life not in cyber space are just pons and they serve no perpose...they just decive and betray be anyway.

i have noone.

i'm so hurt i can't describe...how i feel.

it's ok tho because i know now that i can only depend on me and that everyone else is out for there own gain....i am nothing in this universe and that is fine by me.

i can't lose anyone else or have anything taken from me because it's all been taken.

clock ticks and it all goes to zero.

where am i. i'm gone.

i have no feelings because they serve only to hurt me....so this is me.

nothing.

uhh! never i say never again.

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 22:07:12 GMT

just waiting to go back to work. no tmuch going on except i got beyond drunk last night. yeah i'm never touching alcohol again..it's better to get high on weed anyway because you don't get sick all night long.

plus it makes you feel really good.

i always say the same thing ,maybe this time around i'll have the sense to follow through.

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 04:55:19 GMT

i'm doing better just taking it really slow. i go back to work in 3 weeks and i can't wait because then i'll be with my beloved darkon again.